Born Original.

 

I used to  be loud and cheerful. I guess most of the people who know me before I took degree in Kampar will know that. I couldn’t help but to wonder, where has my cheerful self gone? There are times I hate myself so much that I wish I could be a little pleasant to mix with the others. Sitting in the corner and be wild in my own imaginations or thoughts is what I do best lately. I grew to take other’s point of view seriously and I even started to be a turtle hiding in its shell. This whole thing is going out of hand because I end up crying every night.

 

I read my old blog out of random just now. I never realize I have changed this much. LOL! I wonder if it’s a good thing or it’s not. Some friends misses the good ol’ cheerful me while some said it’s just the process of life. No one really stays active and childish until we die. Maybe I should learn to value other’s judgement towards me lighter. The ultimate lesson that I’ve been trying to master since God knows when. Anyone willing to share? =)

 

My life is always full of drama. I wonder why. Is it because I’m one of the bitch or because I’m surrounded by bitch? LOL! Whatever it is, I think I should really start controlling my emotions. I would like to pick up my dusty tag: Live Loud, Laugh Proud, and I’m born to be original. Who cares what the others bitch about me? I am living for God and for myself! Bitch that doesn’t deem to be important should just get their fuck outta my head or my decisions! My mom used to say, a bitch never stop bitching. So, why am I taking it so seriously? =)

 

 

 

Till then.